16Mar10

Breakfast: 9:15am

• 1/2 Granny Smith apple
• 1.5 oz swiss cheese
• 1/2 c granola with 1 container strawberry yoghurt mixed in
• 2 c coffee with skim milk
• 1 c water
• 500mg Vitamin C, 1 capsule Omega 3-6-9

Notes: Another day of homework and such. I'm having a horrible time with trichotillomania right now, and just over the past several weeks. Things have been a little more stressful but even so, it seems like the urge is a lot stronger than normal. When I was in OH, there were times when T had to actually grab my hand to get me to stop. Grr. I've been sorta fantasizing about just shaving the whole mess off and being done with it, but that's not really socially acceptable, especially for a mid-20s woman looking for a job.

Oh god.

I'm mid-20s.

*minor breakdown*

Please excuse me while I go get out my coloring books and crayons.

Lunch: 12:30pm

• 2 slices of sourdough bread
• on one: hummus, broccoli sprouts, 3 slices of avocado, a little lime juice and a sprinkle of cayenne
• on the other: hummus, 3 slices of tomato (I ate the rest too), about 1-1.5 T feta and a little pepper
• 1 semi-hard-boiled egg
• 1 c 2% milk
• 1 c water with 40 drops of nettle tincture
• 500mg Vitamin C and 1 capsule Omega 3-6-9 (not shown)

Notes: I hurrrrrt like a bitch from last night. Somehow I exercised my back way more than I usually do when doing a lot of squats, and one side is more sore than the other (we were working outside and the ground where I was standing wasn't quite flat, so that might be part of it, as well as those damn goblet squats).

Just got a call from Martha - she needs someone to help with inventory and organising the store on Sat and Sun this weekend, which should get me a nice little chunk of cash. W00t for random opportunities to make money! I'm also submitting my employment app to Whole Foods for the 3rd time (you have to redo it for each dept.) and am REALLY hoping they stop giving me the runaround on this. Of the past two depts I went to, one says they're definitely hiring me IF one of the current workers decides to switch depts (which, according to my sources, is rather probable), and the other told Bethany last week that they'd interview me yesterday (Monday), but hired someone else on Sunday, all without letting me know anything. Yargh...but I'm still trying hard for this, as the starting pay is the same as what I was making after a year and a half at the old place.

Snack: 4:30pm

• 1 Wasabread
• 1 egg, chopped up and mixed with about 1.5T tahini, 1T lime juice, 2t EVOO and a little salt, with some paprika sprinkled on top
• 2 c coffee (decaf! don't judge me!) with whole milk as creamer

Dinner: 8:30pm

• ~1.5 c chopped cooked asparagus
• ~1 oz baked salmon
• 2 eggs, beaten with a little 2% milk
• all of the above, made into an attempt at an omelette/frittata that wasn't cooking thoroughly, so got turned into scrambled deliciousness. also contains fresh grated nutmeg and a dash of salt
  
• ~4 oz cheapo pinot noir I found in the bottom of the fridge
  
• 1 c superawesomefruityenergy juice
• 2T roasted soy nuts
• 500mg Vitamin C and 1 capsule Omega 3-6-9
• not shown: 40 drops of nettle tincture in water

Notes: Does this count as a "dinner fail?" If so, I hope all my future failures turn out to be this delish. The nutmeg might seem odd to put in a savory dish but it's really lovely, adding just a bit of fragrance to the whole deal.

While pretending to care about the IRS laws governing limitations on tax deductions for meals during business travel, I found this blog on trich. It's really kind of amazing to find things like this out there, even though I've found them before and know that they exist. It's just...I'm not really sure how to describe it, other than an intense, warm, total-being feeling of connectedness to all the other people who have this problem and don't know how to deal with it, and who imagined themselves to be freaks of nature, utterly alone in their compulsions before finding things like this. The girl who writes it is amazing in her own particular way, too - of the (considerably few out of the myriad) bloggers I've seen talking about this subject, she is the only one I've seen to post pictures of herself, and in particular her hair. Her case is much worse than mine, and even I'm iffy about wearing hairstyles that I think will show off the small patches I have - she's incredibly brave to show herself off to the world like this. So yeah, if the topic interests you at all (or if you've never heard of it) go over and check it out.